Sometimes there is such a thing as too much knowledge. Those of us who are possessed by the demon of perfection and the drive to Do It Right tend to read all kinds of things, formulate plans and then beat ourselves up when we don’t meet our oh-so-lofty-and-perfect goals.
Last week POD asked me if thinking kept me from doing. Why, YES. YES, IT DOES. THANKS FOR POINTING THAT OUT.
So last week I decided to Not Be Crazy anymore. To do more and think less, as it were. And to chuck the food journal, the exercise plan, the mental questions about whether or not I was doing it RIGHT. I decided to take each meal as it came, to get some exercise every day, but not beat myself up if I missed a day, to just do – well, not my BEST, because my BEST is pretty damn good and pretty damn stressful – but to do my best version of GOOD ENOUGH.
And then it rained. And my street flooded. And I spent 2 days staying with my boss and his wife, eating their fantastic dinners, buying lunch at work, drinking 2-3 glasses of wine (with cheese!) every night, and not exercising. I did my best to eat well, although I DID order beef stroganoff on buttered noodles in the commisary one day. (YUM, in case you wondered.)
And you know what happened? I lost half a pound last week.
Yup. You read that right. It was a nice lesson, actually. It was a good reminder, especially since I have a tendency to restrict my eating all day and then binge at night because I’m so FREAKIN’ HUNGRY. But last week? I did not do that. I ate better, and just as importantly, I ate ENOUGH. Huh. Who knew that would work?
And tonight as I sit here, fresh from the shower, I know that I ran some errands tonight, and even though I got home later than I’d like, I still got a workout in. Not 60 minutes, or even 45 – with weights and cardio, I topped out at 30 minutes – but it was better than nothing. And the only reason I did it was because I wasn’t worried about not living up to my goals. I didn’t think, “God, 60 minutes seems SO OVERWHELMING, and why even bother? I’m tired, I’m cranky, and I won’t reach my goal anyway, so screw it.” I just surfed the exercise cable channel until I found something fun and did it. (I found CARDIOKE, and if you like your cardio loud and cheesy and if you like to sing along – IT WAS AWESOME. I might even track down and buy the DVD.)
And I get to listen to my body. I ate (approx.) 1/4 cup of guacamole/salsa mix for dinner tonight, and didn’t worry about it (what? It’s GOOD FAT). I’m not particularly hungry. I know I’ll be hungrier than usual in the morning, and that’s ok; I’ll eat 2 breakfasts or something like that, and it’ll all even out. NICE.
I’ll see how this week goes, since it’s basically week 2 of Not Being Crazy. Wonder if the honeymoon period will last? 😉