There is nothing wrong. But I find myself sort of adrift, and I’m not sure why. I’m having trouble focusing on the Beck, on my food, on my exercise. I just feel sort of “blech.”
I was trying to figure out why: I know that I was out REALLY late one night this week (went to bed at 2:30 and got up for work at 6:30), so that accounts for some of it. When I’m really tired, I have trouble digesting food, and since my energy is low, I crave sugar and simple carbs – which then, of course, make me more tired, which makes food harder to digest, and I crave more sugar. So there’s that cycle.
And yesterday I was EXHAUSTED (which I expected). But for some reason that carried over into today (to my surprise), so I’m having the same digestive issues and cravings for sugar, although I did reasonably well, diet-wise. I didn’t eat the copious amounts of sugar I wanted, but since I knew I was tired, I DID build in a relatively simple-carb afternoon snack instead of my usual yogurt or fruit or peanut butter. (I had an apple-cinnamon Bagel-ful.)
I also realized today that I didn’t plan out my food for the week, which led to 2 things: first, I bought food that I never prepared. (I’m hoping it won’t go bad, and I can just fix it next week.) Second, because I didn’t have a list I could just look at, it’s easier to choose lunches and dinners on impulse, which always means that I don’t eat as well; I get seduced by the junk food. 😉
So that’s kind of where I’m at. I definitely need to plan ahead on my eating and exercise, and I should probably do the same for the Beck book. I keep feeling like I don’t really WANT to plan ahead forever, but then I have to remind myself that I won’t necessarily have to, but I’m changing 20-year-old habits, so I will certainly have to do this for a while. *snark, bitch, grump*
But now, I’m off to bed. I have to get up early so that I can put on a Belle costume and fix my hair and apply false eyelashes and all that stuff – for work tomorrow! LOL, a friend of mine basically dared me to wear a Princess dress to the opening of “Princess and the Frog” tomorrow (which was a totally good movie, and you should GO SEE IT!). I told her if she bought it, I’d wear it – and she did! I spent some time tonight altering it to fit, and tomorrow there will be serious hot rollers and assorted crap involved. So I’m off to bed – I need my “beauty sleep” if I’m going to be a Princess tomorrow! Ha!
Behold, the glory of the ugliest Disney Princess costume ever! (Seriously, I swear I look 20 pounds bigger in this damn thing.)
Aaaand another one (do you like the cowboy boots? It was raining, so Belle went rock-a-billy that day ;D):
Finally, I had some rockin’ hair (which you can ALMOST see):