Well, after my great weekend, I had a slip-up last night. A friend came over that I hadn’t seen in months, and we stayed up really late – REALLY late – drinking wine and talking. Between the 2 of us we polished off 3 bottles of wine, and I went to bed at 2:30 in the morning. Needless to say, I did not get a workout in this morning. Ahem. And then, since my stomach was so upset from the wine, I ended up eating more fat and starch than I normally do, to settle it.
But (in the success column) I did my best to mitigate the damage as much as possible. So I had a breakfast burrito, and I added mayo to it (I know most people think that’s gross, but I love it), but I had a whole-wheat tortilla with spinach and egg whites (along with the cheese). And at lunch I had a chicken quesadilla, but I also had a salad. And I had some soup and crackers for dinner, which wasn’t horrible. AND (cue the drumroll) I came home and TOTALLY did my exercise DVD, so that I didn’t get sucked into the whole “I can’t do this, I don’t know why I even bother trying” mindfuck.
So it’s kind of a draw. And since I haven’t been drinking habitually, I’m not so worried about last night. (It was a lot of wine, but we drank it over about 8 hours, along with a lot of water. Don’t get me wrong, I was definitely drunk by the end of the night – I’m a lightweight – but it wasn’t the same as drinking a bottle and a half of wine over the course of 2 or 3 hours.)
Also, I’ve been slacking a little bit on my Beck stuff. I keep conveniently “forgetting” to read the affirmations, and to sit down while I eat. I *am* getting better about giving myself credit for the good behaviors instead of just beating myself up about my setbacks (see above re: what I did right today), but overall my behaviors are starting slowly to slide back toward my “normal.” And that is not acceptable to me.
So I have to get back on track. I got hung up on the “exercise” chapter, but I think I’m getting a handle on that now. I have to keep reminding myself that I don’t have to do it perfectly, and that right now, something is better than nothing. And I REALLY have to keep telling myself that I can always revise my plan next week or the week after or the week after that. It’s not written anywhere that whatever I come up with now I have to stick with FOREVER. Um, right. I have a tendency to forget that.
So, back to work. Which is in itself a big win for me: having a setback, and not letting it derail me altogether. Huh. I just realized that. That makes me kind of proud of myself. 😀