I seem to be walking a VERY fine line between sick and well. I called in sick on Thursday, and don’t know if I’m going in today. Yesterday I went back to bed and slept until about 9:30, then got up, checked my work email, did some work and went back to bed from 11:30 until almost 2:00. And then I went to bed (lights out) at 7:30. I was running a low fever when I woke up, although I didn’t have any other symptoms, so I think it’s due more to stress and exhaustion than the flu or some other virus.
Still, it’s a very clear warning from my body: get some rest or we will KNOCK YOU OUT. Message received.
The other day I wrote about things knocking around in my brain. See, the thing is, I don’t really know what I want to write about. Most days I don’t have super-disordered thoughts anymore (although there are certainly the bad days), and that was what I started this blog to deal with. The fact that I don’t have them most of the time anymore is a measure of success, don’t get me wrong; I’m not sorry they’re mostly gone. But now I’m not sure what comes next.
I’ve been working on losing weight and maintaining a healthy attitude about it – that seems to be a touch-and-go endeavor. But I’m not sure I want this to be a “diet blog,” per se. I enjoy reading them, but I also know that when I focus too much on it, I get a little nuts – which sort of defeats the purpose of the whole, “healthy attitude” part! I thought about writing a diet/crazy blog – that is, a blog about the external aspect of dieting combined with the internal effort to keep a leash on The Crazy, but I’m not sure about that, either (though it seems like the most likely possibility). I don’t really want to write a completely unfocused, general-life blog (though lately it’s been that more than anything!), mostly because I don’t really like READING those. I like reading things that are more focused, even when that focus is loose.
Soooooo . . . I’m still thinking. Although now that I’ve written all that, I’m kind of leaning toward the whole diet/crazy tack.
Any ideas? Is there a subject listed above or similar to it you’d rather read about? Opinions? All that jazz?