Holy Cow


Grandpa died and is buried.  My uncle went into the hospital, came out of the hospital, and went home.  It’s hard to believe that it’s only been a couple of weeks, because I feel so flat from emotional exhaustion.

I keep reminding myself that this coming weekend I don’t have to go anywhere.  I can hide out in the condo and stare at the wall if I’m so inclined.  (Well, as long as “staring at the wall” is code for “studying for the LSATs,” anyway.)  Good thing.  I don’t have much energy left to do anything else. 

Back to the gym tomorrow.  I meant to go today, but slept through my alarm for almost an hour.  I figured that meant I needed the sleep more than the gym, but I really want to get there in the morning (Wednesday, since I’m writing this Tuesday night). 

I know it’s just the exhaustion talking, but right now everything seems like a herculean effort.  I have so much to do, and thinking about it makes me want to crawl into bed and hide.  *wrinkles nose*  I figure I’ll need about 7-10 days of real rest before I feel like a human being again.  But for now, I’m going to bed.  I’m wiped.


7 responses to “Holy Cow

  1. man Marste. and here I was demanding you check in.

    take care of you.

    DO WORKOUT but go SLOOOOW and just do it to keep yourself moving and perhaps feel a bit better.


  2. Sending you much love Marste. Hope you get some well earned rest and take care of yourself.

    Lola x

  3. I’m so so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you. Take care of yourself and your mom.

  4. You and your mom have my condolences, Marste!

    Take good care of yourself (and your mom, too!)

  5. Oh wow – you’ve really been through the wringer. I’m so sorry! Take all the time you need to grieve and process. ((hugs))!

  6. LOL, Miz – I didn’t feel like you were “demanding” anything. 🙂 No worries.

    Thanks for all the good wishes and condolences, folks. Things will be back to normal around here shortly, I’m sure. 🙂

  7. Hope your healing comes with time. Remember grief has no time line? (I love repeating those annoying phrases.)

    You’ve been thru so much. Take good care.

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