That pretty much sums it up. (And I think I’ve used that post title before. Hm.) This week has been a little crazy – not the crazy-head kind, but the I’m-so-busy-I-don’t-have-time-to-breathe kind.
First off, thanks to Julie for suggesting that I binge on fruit if I’m really in a bad way. I’ve been eating grapes and frozen berries, and it seems to work: a bit of a sugar hit, plus I get full so fast that I physically CAN’T keep eating. So that works out. And my skin looks FANTASTIC! *cracks up*
I went back to the gym last week, too. Just the treadmill, every morning for about 45 minutes (however long it takes to watch an episode of “Lost” or “Fringe” or something like that on my iPod). At first, I was going to jump back into the weights too, but it turned out to be too easy to stay home and do them. While that’s not inherently a bad thing, I was using it to justify not going to the gym at ALL, so I figured I’ll just do the treadmill for a few weeks: enough time to get back in the habit of going every morning. And then I’ll add the weights back in, when I’m back in the habit of getting my ass to the gym and not blowing it off every chance I get.
In related news, I’m wondering how much of the downward spiral of the last month or two was exercise-related. I already feel LOADS better. My mood has leveled out, I’m not bingeing (ok, last night was bad, but that was the first bad night in the last 8 days, which is good) as much, I’m not drinking like a fish, I’m not laying in bed and crying for hours, I’m not sitting on the couch staring blankly at the TV all night. In a way I’m glad for that downward spiral, because it puts exercise in a whole new light: it’s not a weight-loss thing, it’s a sanity thing. I need to get my ass to the gym not so I can Lose Weight and Get Skinny but so that I can handle day-t0-day existence without drinking and bingeing and crying all the time. I don’t think I’d realized until just the last few days how MUCH of an effect it has on my system. I knew it helped, but I didn’t really realize that it was the difference between feeling normal and feeling totally overwhelmed by EVERYTHING. Good to know.