You know how sometimes you read/hear/whatever a few things, and it sort of snowballs on itself, unlocking doors in your psyche that keep leading to more doors and more doors until you think you’ve thought yourself to death? Sort of like one “A-ha!” moment multiplied a million times over, each one leading into another one?
No? Ooooooookay, then.
I’ve been thinking a lot about the all-or-nothing mentality and the effort of being perfect (see my last post). And I think that maybe the secret for me is to allow that all-or-nothing mentality a little room. But not the whole house. So to speak.
In other words, I’m thinking that right now, while I’m not taking Tae Kwon Do, that it might be a good idea to go to the gym every day. And plan on reevaluating that when I go back to TKD. (Because TKD classes are Monday and Wednesday nights, which means I’m not in bed until later, which in turn means that getting up at four to go to the gym? NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.) My personal challenge in that then, is not stopping altogether when I miss a day. And in not going more than once a day. Ahem. (Actually, my gym has HIDEOUS parking problems, so the odds of me going before work are good, but after work, in the traffic? Not so much.)
I’ve also been thinking about Charlotte’s comment in my last post. Specifically, the bit about tiny changes that make a big difference. Full disclosure: I HATE TINY CHANGES. Hate them. With the fiery passion of a thousand suns. That’s a lot of suns, people. And a lot of fire. I’m just sayin’. THAT’S how much I hate tiny changes. Why? Because they take TOO LONG. I want results NOW: damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead!
Clearly that’s worked out well for me so far. Since I have like, NO ISSUES with food or anything. *rolls eyes*
So maybe, just MAYBE, I should think seriously about these tiny changes. I’ve been getting enough sleep for the first time probably EVER IN MY LIFE, and that’s a relatively tiny change, but it’s made a HUGE difference. I actually have energy to get through the day. Who knew? And I was afraid that I’d need 9 or 10 hours a night, and have no time to myself, but as it turns out, when I get enough sleep, I only need 7.5-8 hours a night. TOTALLY do-able. If I get up at 4:30, I don’t have to go to bed until 9:00pm. (Yeah, I know that seems early to some people. I know I don’t have kids, and am not married and should therefore be out partying till the wee hours. Whatever. I’m a morning person, anyway. Always have been.)
- I’m going to keep getting 7.5-8 hours of sleep a night.
- I’m going to restart/go back to keep meditating for 10 minutes a day. (Seriously, I can do ANYTHING for 10 minutes, right?)
- I’m going to go to the gym every day, M-F, until I go back to TKD. Then I’ll reevaluate. (Except tomorrow and Tuesday. I have to get my hair done and the color needs 48 hours of no showering to set properly. PRIORITIES, people.)
- I’m going to work on losing another 10 pounds. I’m not sure how I feel about that, but I’m going to. We’ll see what mental and emotional shit THAT brings up.
- I’m going to go back to church at least once a month. I haven’t been going at all, and when I *do* go I go EVERY SUNDAY WITHOUT FAIL – for about 3 weeks. Then I beat myself up and don’t go at all. So. Once a month.
- I’m going to go back to seeing a movie on the weekend mornings once a month, too. I used to do that every Saturday and I LOVED it. I’ve gotten out of the habit though, and I miss it. Other things come up on Saturdays, but once a month should be do-able, right?
- I will print this list out, because otherwise I WILL TOTALLY FORGET ALL THIS STUFF in like, 2 days. Attention span of a goldfish, that’s me.
Anyway. I guess I’m listing all that out here, because I need someone to tell me if it seems reasonable. *I* think it does, but I know that what seems reasonable to me isn’t in fact, always reasonable.
Thoughts? Opinions? Advice (not even unsolicited, since I’m asking for it)? Lay it on me, people.
Off-topic: I stalled out reading the Metabolic Typing Diet. I fully plan on finishing it SOON though, and will reveiew it. It’s been an . . . *interesting* book. In a good way.