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I went back. Tonight. Even though I had a stomachache all afternoon thinking about it. Even though I was afraid of what people would think of me (and yes, I know no one gives a damn about me, but IN MY HEAD I AM THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERSE, ok?). Even though I was afraid I wouldn’t make it through another class (I didn’t).
And I stood in the back, and didn’t get sick. No one pointed or laughed. A couple of people smiled at me encouragingly. I had to sit out about half of a class, but that was ok. I did what I could, and that was enough.
AND, guess what? I might not be the fittest, or have the most stamina, but one thing I’ve retained since my dancing days? Flexibility. I might not be flexible compared to a dancer anymore, but tonight I was the ONLY one in the class who could strech with my head on my knees, AND? Do the SPLITS. Aw yeah, baby. Nice. 🙂
But dude, seriously. I WENT BACK. That’s a big deal for me – all my life I’ve bailed on embarrassing situations. And tonight – I went back.