So I’m having some stomach problems lately. Nothing that can’t be fixed, but it’s a pain in the meantime. I’ve already seen my doctor, and I got some medication, along with a direction to change my diet for the next few weeks.
The diet part? That’s the problem. I’m supposed to be eating what I think of as “flu” food – crackers, broth, juice, maybe some noodle soup here and there, the occasional piece of toast, lots of tea, no coffee (*sob*). But honestly, eating that way leads to me not wanting to eat at all. Partly that’s because it’s just flat-out boring (and at some point I’d rather just be hungry than drink another cup of damn broth), but it’s also because it’s just SO EASY to skip meals and rationalize that it’s because I’m “getting better.” And the hard thing is, IT’S TRUE: I am getting better physically, but mentally, my head starts getting a little (ok, a LOT) crazy.
The best thing for my body would probably be to just drink diluted juice for a week or so, and then start eating solid food. But the minute I think that, I hear “WOO! WEIGHT LOSS!” in the back of my head, which is so NOT ok. So I’ve been trying to counter it by eating CONSTANTLY. Mostly crackers, nothing heavy or anything that would upset my stomach, but food, nonetheless. Because for me, the act of eating keeps me thinking about food, and if I’m thinking about food, I’m more likely to eat. The irony of course, is that I think I’m acutally eating MORE than I was before I got sick, which is kind of NOT THE POINT. But I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place on this one, and it sucks.
*SIGH* I got nothin’. No good ideas, no theories about how to get around this. Just sitting here, playing with fire . . . yeesh.