Today was just a tough day. I’ve hit the point in mourning the breakup where mostly I remember the good things, and I miss him. I have occasional bouts of anger, but mostly I just feel like we threw away 6 months of something great for 1 month of shittiness. And now I just miss the good stuff.
This hurts like a bitch – and it sucks SO much. I’m housesitting right now, which is probably for the best, because all I really want to do is eat junk food and drink. But I can’t, because this isn’t my home, and I brought food with me, since I’m only here for a few days. So I can’t just raid the cupboards and binge, which means that I have to actually sit with the hard feelings and go through them.
But I miss him so much. Can’t I just be done missing him now? Please?