Well, after my great weekend, I had a slip-up last night.  A friend came over that I hadn’t seen in months, and we stayed up really late – REALLY late – drinking wine and talking.  Between the 2 of us we polished off 3 bottles of wine, and I went to bed at 2:30 in the morning.  Needless to say, I did not get a workout in this morning.  Ahem.  And then, since my stomach was so upset from the wine, I ended up eating more fat and starch than I normally do, to settle it. 

But (in the success column) I did my best to mitigate the damage as much as possible.  So I had a breakfast burrito, and I added mayo to it (I know most people think that’s gross, but I love it), but I had a whole-wheat tortilla with spinach and egg whites (along with the cheese).  And at lunch I had a chicken quesadilla, but I also had a salad.  And I had some soup and crackers for dinner, which wasn’t horrible.  AND (cue the drumroll) I came home and TOTALLY did my exercise DVD, so that I didn’t get sucked into the whole “I can’t do this, I don’t know why I even bother trying” mindfuck.

So it’s kind of a draw.  And since I haven’t been drinking habitually, I’m not so worried about last night.  (It was a lot of wine, but we drank it over about 8 hours, along with a lot of water.  Don’t get me wrong, I was definitely drunk by the end of the night – I’m a lightweight – but it wasn’t the same as drinking a bottle and a half of wine over the course of 2 or 3 hours.) 

Also, I’ve been slacking a little bit on my Beck stuff.  I keep conveniently “forgetting” to read the affirmations, and to sit down while I eat.  I *am* getting better about giving myself credit for the good behaviors instead of just beating myself up about my setbacks (see above re: what I did right today), but overall my behaviors are starting slowly to slide back toward my “normal.”  And that is not acceptable to me. 

So I have to get back on track.  I got hung up on the “exercise” chapter, but I think I’m getting a handle on that now.  I have to keep reminding myself that I don’t have to do it perfectly, and that right now, something is better than nothing.  And I REALLY have to keep telling myself that I can always revise my plan next week or the week after or the week after that.  It’s not written anywhere that whatever I come up with now I have to stick with FOREVER.  Um, right.  I have a tendency to forget that. 

So, back to work.  Which is in itself a big win for me: having a setback, and not letting it derail me altogether.  Huh.  I just realized that.  That makes me kind of proud of myself.