The Best Idea EVER

Alternate post title:  I am the Most Modest Person EVER.
So, that 5-year-plan?  Isn’t really exactly a 5-year plan.  It’s more like a 20-year, “Dear-God-if-you-could-help-me-out-with-this-because-I-have-no-idea-how-to-ever-make-it-happen-but-it’s-seriously-the-Best-Idea-EVER-so-any-help-you’d-like-to-throw-my-way-would-be-great” plan.
About 10 years ago I read in an article that 80% of kids who age out of the foster care system in CA end up on welfare.  It was a big [...]

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Christmas Chaos and the Year of the Reboot

Holy cow, people.  I’m back!  Here I am!  LOL, I’ve been out of town for a week and a half, and despite my best bloggy intentions, there was no posting (obviously).  There was hardly any internet-connecting at ALL to be honest, and my emails?  Are freakin’ RIDICULOUS right now.  Hoooooooly cow.
Well, most of my “eat [...]

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I Walk the Line

LOL, I keep laughing at my melodramatic post titles.  If my mother read this she’d probably tell me that I haven’t changed since I was a kid: “drama, drama, drama.” 
Aaaanyway.  I’ve been keeping a food journal for almost exactly 2 weeks now.  I was doing ok; it wasn’t making me crazy at all.  [...]

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Nothing in Particular

I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth, I swear.  I just haven’t had much to say about anything lately.  Work has been busy enough to keep me busy, and Christmas is kicking my ASS.
I’m usually one of “those people” when it comes to Christmas.  By December 1, my tree is up, my cards [...]

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Why I Am Grateful for My Eating Disorder(s)

Because otherwise I’d be dead.
No, really.  (How’s that for a weird opening for a post that is essentially about gratitude?  Ha!)
See, an ED (as far as I can deduce with my UTTER LACK OF FORMAL TRAINING but a whole lot of personal experience) is a coping mechanism.  A maladaptive, destructive, soul-crushing, life-draining, family-and-friends-alienating mechanism that might [...]

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Crankypants

Yes, that’s me.  I’m a SERIOUS crankypants right now.  (Isn’t that word just fun to say?  Say it out loud: crankypants.  Crankypants.  Crankypantscrankypantscrankypants.  FUN.  What?  It’s the little things, people.)
Mostly I am a crankypants because my head is not done being weird, but I am tired of WRITING about feeling weird.  I’m tired of being [...]

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Finding Ease in the Pose

I have no idea where I heard that statement: “Find ease in the pose.”  I know it was during something to do with yoga (class? discussion?  no idea), and I know that I respected the person saying it enough to listen to him (read: more likely a swami from India than Jane Doe, the yoga [...]

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The Past is Prologue

Oooo, how’s that for a pompous post title? 
When I talk about my eating in college, I refer to it as disordered eating, instead of an Eating Disorder.  The truth is, when I break down my behaviors during that time, I have a hard time pinning down what, exactly was wrong.  No, wait.  Let [...]

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All Work and No Play Make . . . Well, YOU Know.

Hey!  It’s snowing!  On my blog!  Neat!
I’m not sure I like that it snows all over the WHOLE page: it makes it weird when I’m trying to read comments and stuff.  But I REALLY like the snow in the header.  I might keep it for a while.  (It’s only available until January 4th, anyway.)
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I Know Your Name

A number of years ago, after the Scary Binge (see previous post), after I thought that maybe, possibly, IT JUST MIGHT BE that it was time to get some help, I found a fabulous therapist.  She didn’t specialize in eating disorders, but she specialized in something called Voice Dialogue technique, which is basically giving each [...]

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